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Nicki ([personal profile] damndestcreature) wrote on September 9th, 2013 at 12:51 am
Maybe I was a fool to ever believe things could be different, to have ignored the notion of fate, believing myself removed from the universe's design. I fancied myself a Han Solo, someone who steadfastly refused to believe in an invisible force that governed all things. I don't know if it's God or the Force or just the inevitable eventuality that is the truth, but maybe it's time I stop fighting it.

This isn't who I am. I'm still lying to myself by lying to others, twisting and distorting the truths about myself.

I wanted to keep my intent a secret, for fear of being doubted, but I don't want the secrecy, I don't want my family and my friends to think I'm someone who I'm not. So I'll have to have a few very important conversations, and very soon.

The world is tumbling toward chaos, and I'm not running away. I will never run away again.

Flectere si nequeo superos, Acheronta moveba.
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